What about Love??

Created on 2^nd September 2009, Wednesday.

I am playing the snooker game but I’m still on duty. Some of them might be saying I’m lazy and playful but I am free now because nothing to do in my office after I had done the solution for every single cases. I just switch on my MP3 and listening to Sam Lee song name “Approaching”. He is missing a relationship that he really cherishes the most.

While listening to this song, I was thinking back to this afternoon. I am chatting with one of my dearest friends through MSN, his name Mr. N… He told me that he get back to his the previous relationship that he really can’t let go and he just can’t give up because he really love and miss the person named K. Well, I admitted that I am mean to K actually and I trying to pull N back from K because I know N will get very bad hurt afterwards.

For the moment when he told me, “Z, I am getting back with K and he just put the tantrum on me because of jealousy.” N said. I was wondering about K, since K decided to left N from life. Is K considering about how was N feeling? The answer is obviously “No.” That why K still jealousy while K found something about N and K resisted caring about N feelings.

I do admit everybody who in love is jerk because there are always shown love is color blind. When someone fall in love, he or she will never forget about how sweet they are when they are in love even he or she broken up with their lover. When N told me about he get back to the relationship, I do understand about how he feels like.

Even K betray N previously but this unable to take the feeling of love from N. I am worries about him actually because the fact is always cruel to every one of us. I’m not sure how much K loves N because K’ feelings just so changeable. K still listed in my quarantine list like what H1N1 patience does because I didn’t feel K really love N when I heard what N told me. I just can’t do anything to N because this is beyond my control, the only thing I can do for N would be bless him and greet him found his true love and release from suffering at the end of the day.

Love is unpredictable. It could be gone anytime and existed around you anytime, anywhere without expectation. Just like how I’m going to meet M previously. We get to know each other from a very popular networking since year 2008 but not really chatting with each other after approved friend request.

I do cherish of what I had now because I believe M is my fate even fate can’t stand for realistic but unless we had this kind of fate because and we really put effort on this relationship and manage it well. We just argued this afternoon because of miscommunication between us. I am actually waiting for M in the living room while chatting with Dear Willy, Dee Dee Roy and LUN. I am putting on webcam with Lun while waiting M preparing in the bedroom but I don’t know M actually waiting me to get in to my bedroom.

So no bother and I just continuing chatting with Dear Willy, Lun and Dee Dee Roy in MSN. After a while, M came out from the room and said,” I think I should left first, since you still busying around with your friends.” M quickly move to the main door and get out from the house without giving me time to explain myself. After that when I questioning M, “Why you mad?” “I am waiting for you in the room and you are busying chatting with your friends there.” He replied. “I am waiting out there too. Don’t you realize it? Why should I get into my room again since I’m prepared and all of my work belonging was already in the living room. Why you want to mad because of that?” I am putting out my tantrum at that point. Finally I am the one who get him back because I can’t just don’t talk to M… because M is important to me….

True love is hard to find… It was precious one because it can motivate me and push me to work harder just for love. So when N told me about what he just got back to K, I did put myself into his shoes and consider about his feelings too. If one day, when M decided to leave me, I will always remember the moment being with M even M treated me badly someday. It is because of Jesus just delicate and brings M to my life. No matter it with time frame or without. I will still choose the way that I’m satisfied with because I’m a jerk too.

This is for N,

“Dear, remember to take good care for you and please … Don’t let yourself get hurt again. I beg of you!! If you need someone to talk, I am here for you because you just my dearest one. You can cry on my shoulder, it just for you when you really need me someday.”